you bitch

i am stretched broken
used up emptied vessel
damaged by you so you keep breaking
the merciful thing would be to
never speak to me again
never think of me
pretend you live in a universe
that doesn't include me
but you have no mercy
i let you in so far
and you broke everything
within your reach
stopped just short
of the final trigger
that would've summoned
the final demon
and i know you derive so much satisfaction
as you do whenever you cause pain
i've seen how you enjoy hurting others
know that every moment i think of you
i wish i'd never met you
i wish i'd never met the people that led me to you.
i want to destroy my whole life
pack up and leave everything just to
live in a world where you can't hurt me anymore.

the upswing

life is good and getting better. and the cynic in me is quickly running out of things to hate about the world.... strange how it flips out of any easy characterizations like that...